Welcome to a new member in our Next Step Peer Support Program
Grant's Story ...
I had an average childhood. There was drinking involved and I can’t say that I was neglected but there were a lot of people in the house. Dad got abusive to my mom and she moved back to her reserve. Us kids were distributed to foster homes. First I was put with a woman who couldn’t have children. I sure got a beating a lot from her. But I did learn to chop wood and shovel. I did whatever it took though I eventually got into trouble. It was 70% bad and 30% good, and always hectic.
My mom eventually collected all her kids together except for me because she felt sorry for the childless woman. This is when I rebelled and felt that no one wanted or loved me.
I quit listening to the rules, ran away more and really got in trouble with the law.
I complained that my foster mother beat me and for that, got a lickin’ of a life time. When I was 12 years old, I ran back to my mom. I explained what was happening to me. My mom pushed me to forgive and almost sent me back to her. Being home with my family didn’t change things much and I was put into Green Pastures Christian Home, a place for youth.
I straightened out there and appreciated the animals. It was life changing because I finally saw that God was always present in my life. I learned that drinking and violence were not the way to go. I also started to see it was important that I change for me, not anybody else. A German family took me in for 7 years where I did good. I saw the rewards of doing well and that it was worth the effort.
The family took me traveling around the world to the USA and to Switzerland. When I got older, I thought that I had let go of the past and my issues were resolved but they all came back. Drinking caused a rift between me and the family and I had to leave. I moved to BC to make it on my own where I explored the mountains and worked. Loneliness overcame me and so I decided to go home. All the evil spirits came back. I blacked out after drinking and in that time, pulled something out of a hat. It wasn’t a bunny rabbit but a snake. To sum it up, I’ve been treading water ever since. I want to learn to trust and know that it is there.
In prison I went to AA and realized I built walls when I drank. When I’m sober I see the pain and am learning to stop putting myself down. I’m at 60% good and 40% bad now.
In March, I leave the halfway house to move to Quixote House. I want to go to school to learn an electrical trade and hope my reserve will sponsor me. Eventually I want my son to come live with me.
Next Step is about integration and I feel accepted there. Even though the group is multicultural, I am curious about the Catholic aspect. Also there have been experiences of confidences broken in my life and so hoping to build some trust here. Since staying sober is the key for me, the clean and sober influence of the group and Quixote House will help further my hopes for the future.
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